Hey you! Welcome back! I know, I know, it’s been a crazy hot minute but let me fill you in. Grab some coffee or a snack because this might get lengthy, not sure.
I always like to be as transparent as possible with you guys, so here it is. It has been work, money, and motherhood. Work got super crazy around the holidays, for those of you who don’t know, I work for a healthcare company, specifically in the payroll department. My job, can get very stressful very quick. If you follow me on Instagram, then you know that some days I end up working up to 12 hour shifts. Yes, it gets that crazy.
Next has been money. We all know how things can get after the holidays. They literally just suck you dry. If you know me personally, then you know that I’m not a skimpy one present giver and you guys I don’t mean that in a braggadocios way whatsoever. I don’t have a huge family, it’s just my mom, dad, and nanny. They do so much for me that I always feel like I want to give them the world, and then having a toddler who I love more than life itself doesn’t help either lol. So where am I going with this? Well, my business account expired last month and it was $300 to renew it. Yeah no. Ya’ll I have a car payment, electric bill, internet, groceries, credit card debt and whatever else bills. I just couldn’t for a while and it hurt so much. I know that was a huge contributor to my anxiety, and I tried to tell myself that it was fine and as long as I was consistent on Instagram it would be ok, but honestly it just felt un natural. One of the reasons I started doing this blogging journey and Instagram was because I love to write, writing is my passion, it fills me, it makes me smile and it allows me to talk about whatever I want, so not being able to do that was no joke, slowly crushing my soul.
What can I possibly say about motherhood that some of you may not know. Well, it’s rough, and it’s definitely rough doing it alone. Picture that 12 hour shift, picking up your kid from the sitter’s, dinner, bath time, bed time story, and before you know it, it’s 10:30. It’s hard some days you guys, and I’m not going to lie, it gets very overwhelming, which guess what, gets those anxiety juices running. I love being a mom, it’s such a blessing and inexplicable love but it is so incredibly hard sometimes.
I wanted to talk about these three factors because, it’s just reality. Instagram is simply a highlight of my day, but this is me. My truth and my life behind the scenes, and just in case you’re going through something similar I wanted to let you know you’re not alone. It may seem like you’re the only going through this, and trust me I know because I’ve been there. Something that has helped me is telling myself is that these hard times are just passing through. Things will get better, I believe it and you need to too. There’s nothing a positive attitude and prayer can’t fix.
Thank you so much for stopping by today and being supportive, and just being here! More blog posts to come, I have so many exciting things in the works, and I can’t wait to share!
Till’ the next post!